i /hate/ this empty feeling.
it's like you want everyone to leave you alone
but at the same time you want someone by your side. and then... you just don't care. you feel nothing. you just do things.
just exist until something inside you breaks again and it hurts.
i wonder if it ever gets any better?
better than loneliness and pain and that freaking feeling that you're about to fall apart.
and when, for a moment, i believe it's gonna be alright.
just to fall back into that emptiness later.
i do hate that.
so fucking much.
мне бы хотелось,
задохнуться в этой гребаной пустоте.
What !F users say
Only today learnt about !F and created an account. Have to admit, this site is interesting and special, indeed. The idea is quite the thing! I'll be keeping my diary in spite of anything. I like this anonymity so much!
I really enjoy reading other participants, it's so much more sincere here than in any social network.
Such a funny idea, to keep an online diary, which can be read by anybody - and nobody at the same time.
I like a lot that there are no comments on !F. Here I have an impression that I am writing just for myself. I have less concern that my message will be evaluated.
I like Fragmenter very much. Now I have extra motivation to change. It's a big difference – just write to myself in a paper notebook, or write in order to share my thoughts.
Fragmenter is cool – I start to think once and again why I'm so depressed and how I came to be like that.
Fragmenter is the best thing that happened to me this year!