ravenheart

it's been fucking years but my mom is still the only one who always makes me cry i hate that i Hate Her this is in no way a normal relationship and it never will be

i hoped it would be alright i hoped it was over but i guess it never really is, huh

you know, daiya no ace fucking hurts me.

i love every second of it.
nothing ever (among other anime \ even tv-shows) made me this happy, i guess

thank you, dna.

and to my readhead too
thank you for sharing this with me.
even though you jealous sometimes, i'm sorry for that.
i'm happy because /you/ brought me to this.
thank you.

#np kim sunggyu – daydream (feat. borderline: tablo & jw)

his voice's breathtaking.
and when i listen to it,
i feel like i'm alive.

thanks to this world
for this very voice.
because i feel like it might be one of the reasons for me to keep fighting.

i /hate/ this empty feeling.
it's like you want everyone to leave you alone
but at the same time you want someone by your side. and then... you just don't care. you feel nothing. you just do things.
just exist until something inside you breaks again and it hurts.

i wonder if it ever gets any better?
better than loneliness and pain and that freaking feeling that you're about to fall apart.

and when, for a moment, i believe it's gonna be alright.
just to fall back into that emptiness later.

i do hate that.
so fucking much.

мне бы хотелось,
однажды
задохнуться в этой гребаной пустоте.