I started to pay more attention to perceptions but most of them are negative, result of my shitty life. There is a strange pleasure from distinguishing like becoming alive. Perceptions are so unpleasant and permanent that sometimes I tried to generate pleasure to reduce suffering, pleasure vanished in numerous NEs but later fought its way again. It looks like I feel my agony in NEs, before I avoided it - too unpleasant. State -5 to -2, aware -2 to +2.
What !F users say
Only today learnt about !F and created an account. Have to admit, this site is interesting and special, indeed. The idea is quite the thing! I'll be keeping my diary in spite of anything. I like this anonymity so much!
I really enjoy reading other participants, it's so much more sincere here than in any social network.
Such a funny idea, to keep an online diary, which can be read by anybody - and nobody at the same time.
I like a lot that there are no comments on !F. Here I have an impression that I am writing just for myself. I have less concern that my message will be evaluated.
I like Fragmenter very much. Now I have extra motivation to change. It's a big difference – just write to myself in a paper notebook, or write in order to share my thoughts.
Fragmenter is cool – I start to think once and again why I'm so depressed and how I came to be like that.
Fragmenter is the best thing that happened to me this year!