девочка-двойник

«It’s good, hard work that makes his arms ache; something he would have revelled in when he was younger, burning with that fiery urge to destroy anything he could get his hands on. A child so full of rage that broken bones couldn’t calm him down. But now, Hua Cheng splits the tree in silence, and doesn’t feel anything at all».

рандомные цитаты из чужих фиков разного качества в старом дневнике:

«Someone he was a few weeks ago would have been anxious about messaging a stranger, especially a very talented one, but the good side of depression is that it prevents him from feeling anything else than emptiness»

«He would’ve been content to be a bachelor all his days rather than suffer through pretending to love anyone even a quarter as much as he truly and wholeheartedly—»

«He doesn’t have a /choice/, anymore. But—

The idea that he isn’t disappearing, he’s just—

Healing.

Sometimes that’s a terrifying, ugly process.

And that means you have to make yourself jump»

теперь вы в курсе источников моего мировоззрения

you begged and begged for some kind of change
maybe they'd wake up tomorrow and regret the pain
that they've passed down to you like DNA
but no luck, no luck

я так залипаю на подмешанную в ДНК боль здесь