nothing
I have such an ever consuming sinking feeling right now. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't.
i am a shit. i am shit. i am shit. i can't help anyone. i can't help myself. i am weak. i am stupid. i can't do anything right. why am i like this. my face is hot. my eyes are watering. i miss everyone. i am apathetic. why. why. why. what am i doing. i can't deal with this. be kind to yourself. life. life. life. why. why. why. what did i do. what is happening i don't understand. i want things to make sense. i want to be normal again. i'm scared. i want to believe everything will be okay. i'm so sorry. i can't do anything. i am shit. i''m sorry to my family, friends and girlfriend. i hate myself. i thought i was better than this. but i am nothing.
Another day of instability. The brain is really funny. Always looking for an easier lie than a difficult truth.
You think you know someone. But they're two people. One sick and one not. You need to be strong because there's a time where the person who you thought you knew feels like they cannot defeat their other side.
Does it last a life time? No. Does it hurt to write? Yes. Does it hurt to read? Also yes.
Do I believe in something real? Yes. Is this something real? Yes. Do I have to be compassionate for myself and for them while they're getting better? Definitely.
Do they believe? No. Doubts exist. Do I understand? Not personally but they are sick.
Life is pain. Who cares if it's good.
I am pretty sad. I don't know. I think I should be happy but I am sad.
There was once a time that I felt alone. It was a really long time. The world had become dull. The monotony of everyday life. The feeling that you don't matter. It becomes great when you are feeling low. So you find a thing that you can control that make you forget. Feel good for a moment. You end up in a hospital once, it was fun. It happens a couple more times. The nothingness haunts you. Everyday becomes another day to be grateful to be alive.
Then you meet someone. Why has the world given to me the greatest gift of all? Love.
Just to take it away. Nothing is forever. The numb returns. This sucks.
What !F users say
Only today learnt about !F and created an account. Have to admit, this site is interesting and special, indeed. The idea is quite the thing! I'll be keeping my diary in spite of anything. I like this anonymity so much!
Fikus
I really enjoy reading other participants, it's so much more sincere here than in any social network.
Дынька
Such a funny idea, to keep an online diary, which can be read by anybody - and nobody at the same time.
Daryel'
I like a lot that there are no comments on !F. Here I have an impression that I am writing just for myself. I have less concern that my message will be evaluated.
!ХуеРы
I like Fragmenter very much. Now I have extra motivation to change. It's a big difference – just write to myself in a paper notebook, or write in order to share my thoughts.
Fragmenter is cool – I start to think once and again why I'm so depressed and how I came to be like that.
Туле 🌱
Fragmenter is the best thing that happened to me this year!
Aart 🐦