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You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it.

yesterday at 22:50

I think I know where I am going.
I'm not sure how to get there,
But I'll try anyway.

January 15, 2018 22:20

Morning wind is the coldest wind,
it flays me of my rags, it freezes-
the very memory leaves me speechless.

January 14, 2018 13:29

The condition is still heavily squashed due to yesterday orgasm. I fill like I am seek. Energy is washed down, very hard to experience any EPs, though it is still substantially better then a yesterday. 12 DAO are defiantly not enough for me.

January 05, 2018 07:40

A much more saturated day than usual. Main points of saturation:
- piano playing
- bazalt and Cyclic Perception of contempt
- working out in Gym while asking myself what I want to do
- skype conversation with M in english with attempts to discuss series for our project
- video call with A
- couple of quick talks with U and E
- less halting in the computer as a result

January 03, 2018 14:34

Woke up kind of smashed, wasted. Shower and a bit of piano, but still in the same dazed condition. Asked E a question, got the answer. Jerked about A, remembered about yesterdays question - Am I doing what I really enjoy doing right now? That nice, I want to keep thinking about it, keep remembering.

So what I want to do next? Ozveriadka probably and editing my timelapses finally) Maybe go somewhere for a photoshoot just to practice some stuff I've been watching tutorials on to convert theoretical knowledge into practical knowledge.

January 03, 2018 02:56

I am a fucking failure :) Why do I even live? :)
In the end, I'm just going to die, like a useless piece of trash I am.
Why do I even try? :)

January 02, 2018 17:13


December 26, 2017 10:27

Я заблудился в этом лесу.
What has come over me?
What madness taken hold of my heart?
To run away, the only answer.
Когда больше нет подростковой мечты, кого и чем ты сможешь согреть.

December 26, 2017 05:47

полчетвертого утра. сижу, перевожу порнофанфик с английского, не зная английского.

Taehyung's smirk only grew wider. "That's the fun part."
He gently mouthed the piercings lining his boyfriend's ear and bristled with pride when he heard the younger's breath hitched audibly. "You just have to stay quiet. So he doesn't hear." He lifted his hand from Jungkook's waist to push under his sweater and caressed the soft skin of his stomach. "Okay?"
Jungkook swallowed thickly. "O-okay."
"Good boy."

December 23, 2017 21:23

I am that puny unbendable twig,
Which is grown up in a scorched hilltop.
Only myself I was able to tweak
How my whole life was inclined to drop

From the illusions to bitter exile,
From overheighted midair to the mud.
I saw no good, I was overtly vile
Now I am nothing but dried, silly rod.

December 22, 2017 17:08

this day feels truly wasted. Spent most of it playing, the game started to feel boring since the mechanics or the story are not that interesting and the major awesome thing about it is the gryphon himself. Watched movie, time killing in VK. Work - 0, partially because of the period (used it as an excuse to skip work). By the end of the day read and recapped 2 articles from Genetics.

The Dutch guy keeps writing me somewhat unusual questions and I noticed that in spite of being flattered I also feel very reluctant to answer. Digged a bit and found out that I despise him cos I think he's stupid. Strangely made me feel enthusiastic to get rid of this contempt. Eliminated it a couple of times.

December 18, 2017 21:03

No matter what I do, I can't help but think why I'm here. Why don't people see me? Why do I even feel sad. Maybe it really nothing personal. I was just born to not exist.

December 18, 2017 02:11

I should really stop dwelling on unnecessary things and just paint. Some things arent meant for me. Or not the right time? It seems I attract it. Or kinda like a cycle. I don't want it to be like that anymore.. Change....

December 17, 2017 13:02

Everything sucks.

December 14, 2017 18:34

... have you been drinkin’, to take all the pain away?
I wish that I could give you what you, deserve
‘Cause nothing could ever, ever replace you
Nothing can make me feel like you do
You know there’s no one, I can relate to
And know we won’t find a love that’s so true.

There’s nothing like us,
There’s nothing like you and me together through the storm.
There’s nothing like us,
There’s nothing like you and me together.

... lost in confusion, like an illusion
You know I’m used to making your day
But that is the past now, we didn’t last now
Guess that this is meant to be.
Tell me was it worth it? We were so perfect
But baby, I just want you to see

-Nothing like us-

доводит до слез.

December 12, 2017 19:16

It seems like once again
You've had to greet me with goodbye

December 12, 2017 16:57

> 3RACHA – 42

December 08, 2017 21:51

Kak-to huevo i tlenno😿🤦🏼‍♀️🔪

December 07, 2017 17:49

• Была на концерте Oh Wonder.

• Я счастлива.

• 'Cause you were the best thing for me
Stole my mind and found my dreams
Baby, if only you could see heart strings, heart strings
Heart strings, heart strings
Best thing for me
Open the doors and set me free
Baby, if only you could see heart strings, heart strings
Heart strings, heart strings

December 06, 2017 22:04

I feel like shit

December 06, 2017 16:26

Чет punisher вообще не заходит
Too much violence, shitty main character

December 03, 2017 22:03

Я проиграл.
You've got a new horizon it's ephemeral style
A melancholy town where we never smile

December 01, 2017 12:22

procrastinate and dont work, watching vid about procrastination and how to fight against it

November 26, 2017 13:38

'Cuz later when I'll become addicted to life—

> 3RACHA - Placebo (Prod. CB97)

November 23, 2017 00:53

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