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today at 12:29

phatchemy za mnyou hodit khukouy to (ja govoryi smesnym golisom) kurasshiyy newidimiy neftemagnat i govorit chtoy eda eto lubov?)

today at 09:16

you dissapoint me) letter from new yourk)
and my fans) dissapoint me) dissapoint me)

yesterday at 20:36

Packing up
Now going out to search for smth

February 25, 2021 07:07

I can still
see you
at the place out there
when

close my eyes
do you remember
when we felt
like
the only two
alive?

February 20, 2021 22:12

Looking through my childhood photos. They make me think about life. Somehow very deeply. What I live for, how I feel, why I feel it, how do I want to feel. So I need them sometimes.
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About my situation. I have too many NEs. I know its not that hard. I can think and draw conclusions. I can make choice to leave it be or to push. I choose pushing 'cause I want the situation to change and without me...well, it might take too long. But I' m doing all I can. NEs don't help, they make actually worse. And I understand all the why's and all the what's, im prerry good at distinguishing, so..
So I just need to do without suffering. To do everything in my power. And also draw conclusions in the process.

February 16, 2021 06:47

Sad depressed and tired
Stomach aches like shit
Want to have friends who we live with in one room so we could live very cheap
And be musicians(thats what were gonna earch with)
And were gonna love freedom together

February 15, 2021 04:59

k.o.

February 06, 2021 12:16

Saying someone can't be sad because someone else may have it worse is like saying someone can't be happy because someone else may have it better. L.R.K. - да, действительно.

January 28, 2021 08:23

I hate everything about you.

January 19, 2021 02:34

I feel as if I will never be happy.

January 17, 2021 21:58

Not telephone) Tetrris) Ok calling)

January 16, 2021 04:50

about dospehi)

January 12, 2021 17:41

Initial commit

January 10, 2021 20:02

Overexplaining yourself is a trauma response that comes from a deep fear of abandonment or rejection.

January 06, 2021 21:04

ho is he not nowing about him)

January 06, 2021 14:56

i seen ms dos in the darkness)

December 21, 2020 21:32

learning russian language)

December 21, 2020 10:04

Hmhwww what`s new in the internet?)

December 16, 2020 04:34

I'm alone most of the time. Not in the common sense.
It was pleasant today, very much surprisingly.
But now it's just usual again.
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Пусть же мне приснится идеальный мир...
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Перед сном чуть потанцевала под агрессивную рейверскую музыку, представляя как ложу хуй на все и всех и все правила и просто танцую и все.
Сейчас спать пойду.

December 12, 2020 17:10

Imagine a mire and a steep slope who lead up to a plato. At the mire level everything is grey. On the plato everything is colorful and bright. Forests and sea, interesting forms and shapes. The mire level is almost my current condition. The plato level is the place beyond the pleasantness deficit threshold.
My aim is to reach the plato. Step by step.
Today. Practically i dont remember to recall my wishis during the day. Maybe 1-2 times week attempts.
Now i have a obvious wish to reach a professional sportsman intend of selfdevelopment. I must to increase this intent and wish.

December 06, 2020 19:26

TIL:
Perfectionism is a risk factor for obsessive compulsive disorder, obsessive compulsive personality disorder, eating disorders, social anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder, workaholism, self harm and suicide, substance abuse, and clinical depression as well as physical problems like heart disease.

November 25, 2020 07:18

Slow and steady wins the race.

November 11, 2020 07:04

Strange I barely know you but yet I feel deeply connected to you
Crave I never had you but yet I feel so lonely without you
My beautiful stranger...
Мне почему-то очень грустно

November 06, 2020 17:55

A. is surprisingly smart and self-aware for his age. Though I don't understand his motive to study here.

Поймала себя ещё на том, что в совершенно обыденном разговоре с Ю. почему-то начала оправдываться, хотя вообще, блин, какого хрена.. 😅

November 04, 2020 19:16

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