Did reports. Each report requires file download. Tried to raise anticipation after each file upload. Was thinking about changing myself, about Selection Courses, about New Zealand travel.
Did 34 acts of anticipation. This post inspired me https://vk.com/id319433450?w=wall319433450_108
In the break while was waiting the water to boil, tried to raise 'olive' condition.
As I see it's not difficult to add Selection to my life even during office work. The only obstacle is the unwillingness to change myself or my emotional condition.

Happy Halloween 🎃

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People said there's a right to live.
But why there's no such thing as a right to die?
For some people life is indeed a blessing.
But for some other, life is a curse.
They said life is wonderful
But why some people feel it's miserable?
Do we really have to feel happy?
Or surviving this life is enough?

👩m00dy-

Don't tell me to stay strong, I can't. Don't tell me to not give up, I already did.

Poets of the fall - morning tide

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Давно таких дней не было. Наверно уже месяца три. - до начала эксперимента с базальтом
Ахуеть как скучно, серо, ничего не охота. Даже мех. желаний вроде нет сильных. Я могу оторваться от компа, походить, но мне становится так скучно, что я просто не могу и ползу назад.

Поводов нет. С логовом все более-менее ок, с деньгами тоже, с отношениями я вроде уже смирилась, что мне норм раз в неделю потусить, и не пилю себя за это... Особого фона самоосуждения не замечаю. Жить при этом кажется совершенно бессмысленным и какой-то ступор вообще. Раньше тоже были такие состояния, но до причин я не могла докопаться, само проходило.

Утром была повышенная раздражительность.

Too many Japanese guys for one teacher.

Hello

Hello Mr kaise ho

Ali

Threw it in the ground

Goal1: clean/steryl/ino
nextgoal: cours4/dbtzunick, psimdcafsugtllhr, newjob

+kmk

nt: sbsq alien g-spot sessions

Hate your face, your smell and your dirty moustache. Could you just disappear? When I feel your breath in the room I can throw up.

Welcome to your worst nightmare.

Sometimes I feel like Yoo... and Akira as Rika... Judging by our behavior, I think so.
I looked at the CG (Yoo & Rika, Yoo's route, day 10, vn) and squinted.
I miss you, Akira.
I'm yours Kerman, Akira-chan.
U know, I'm so sad...
(p′︵‵。)

Probably wrote everything wrong, but I don't care.

You cannot find a good friendship if you close yourself at home

I refuse to live normally. Here is my place in the lonely lonely house full of victims and cries. I spend all the days on the black floor, my hands are deep inside of the bricks, my eyes are shadows, I'm covered with mushrooms and ravens, my hair is dust and coal. Waking up to moan and to cry out the forgotten names of those who are no longer alive or dead, I dream my dreamy dreams. Ghosts are dancing in my darkness following my dreams, stones and packs inside my body.
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Когда становится тяжело перемещаться, нужно прикрыть глаза и представить любимую остановку, где продают цветы или булочки. Выдохнуть запах столетних камней и протереть очки, всё встанет на места. Стрёмно!

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I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
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A slight headache.
Lying in bed, reading Maya, going to sleep soon.

Had watched Game of Thrones. And polished tools for something. Washed favourite shoes and recited that my body is sexy and beautiful.

Maybe I'll try to write in english again.

Ліньки прокльон
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Sometimes I hate myself. Sometimes I feel myself so tired. Just fucked up. After a difficult day I've got 2 condition: angry or always crying child. Now I'm second one. I'm sitting at the disco and trying not to cry. I can't stop stupid tears. I want a lot but I don't want anything. I cough. I feel bad. I want to the bed. And tea. Maybe an white dance but not sure. However, I'm here instead of my room.
FUCK. JUST TAKE ME TO FUCKING BED.
Thanks.
English makes me feel a little bit easier.