Observing how the change in one life area penetrates into others. Always unexpected.
Apparently my previous inactivity reeked of subterranean self-esteem and emotional hibernation.

Before our innocence was lost,

You were always one of those,
Blessed with lucky sevens,

And the voice that made me cry

Two hours passed and I'm still exhausting myself with boredom. There almost was a break point when I wanted to start to eat a lot but managed to stop. Those are almost the worst states of those I've even experienced and there is no reason for them at all which makes me even more depressed.

2-3 episodes of The BBT. Listening to the animal sounds. Watched random animal videos on youtube, gives me laugh and relief. Feels stupid to suffer from boredom, like why the hell won't I do something interesting? Apparently I underestimate the destructive force of boredom and treat is just like the side effect of lack of interests but actually it's a disease itself.

Hibernation.

And I believe in us because you believe in me
Believe in me

Water falls.

Water falls from bright air.
It falls like hair, falling across a young girl's shoulders.
Water falls making pools in the asphalt,
dirty mirrors with clouds and buildings inside.
It falls on the roof of my house.
It falls on my mother and on my hair.

Most people call it rain.
#Paterson

ily. omg. i'm so tired. pls help me. i miss u sosososososo muUUucchHh. "come to me myyy love to the sea the sea of love" did u remember this song oh my dear? i think that this song is OUR song. i miss ur voice my sunshine..... i can't live without u. please come back my pretty cloud. i love you more than i love somebody else.

Mr. Sandman)

one more shadow of your kiss.

слушал альбом "wings at the speed of sound".

чего-то я захотел исправить себе уши немного поправить, а то они разного размера немного. почитал в гугле, называется отопластика, стоит недорого, но проблем куча. нельзя будет пить кофе и спать на боку, а ведь это две вещи, которые я больше всего люблю в жизни.
так удивился еще, узнав, что у людей уши вообще-то обычно круглые, у меня-то отчетливо заостренные - я думал, у всех так.

W3

Спала еще. Its made me feel satistied, but also sluggish. 12 am, and I still didn't do anything pleasant or useful

W3

I want to die

• I could be born in the US in middle class family. I could be a sweet geek girl the prom king would fall for. I could be a smartass, who knows everything about science and stuff. I could be SO MUCH MORE.
But I'm still sweet anyway. No need to worry.

• Can't concentrate on article "how to deal with lack of concentration"

I'm still into the whole "beat-generation' thing.
I don't know why, but it worries me much.

Natallia.
I'm..
Fuck.
It's just so hard sometimes with her.
She should at least try be more punctual and keep her promices
but I still love.
she is who she is.
and I can put up with it.so...

Love you,
me

I've been thinking much about the beat-generation.
I downloaded some of their books.
And...I don't even know why, but I'm impressed.
Actually, I'm even more impressed by their biography.
They burnt.
And it was beatiful.
They were free.
I'm not sure I'm ready to share with these thoghts with...anybody.
It just seems to be really personal.
so...yea
That's it.

Love you,
me-from-the-past

Well, I'm gonna begin making my notes in english 'till I'll pass my exams.
Gosh, I don't know.
I just hope that I'll help me to express myself better in English.
And also I hope I won't make much mistakes.

So...Women's Day.
Its weird.
And as I've already said I'm a little bit scared of all this stuff.
I guess, I should just go and do some work now.
I should forget about worring
But it isn't this easy, 'cause I'm fucking frick.
I even lied that I'm not in town.
Will I go to the hell for this?

You know what?
Newer mind.
I'll be okay.

Congrads,
me-from-the-past

"situation normal: all fucked up"

She experienced both tears of joy and tears of sorrow just in one day. Just in few hours.

He said he will come to Kazakhstan.
He said he will come and see where I study.
He said he is always proud of me.
He said he was doing better.
He said.
And will never say that again.

Like my grandmother did.

Jelsiz tunde jaryk ai.

0-7, ровно семь часов вышло.

"you say you've seen seven wonders ... but you can't see me" :D песенка and your bird can sing.

BTS- 2! 3!

Violets are violet,
Roses are black.
We mourn ourselves,
There's no running back.

(Это, конечно, не хокку, но именно оно подумалось мне, когда взгяд упал на очередную старую фотографию)