хожу и уже два дня напеваю "hello darkness, my old friend, i ve come to talk with you again"
Что ж, подборку музыки я сделал. Теперь подборочка любимых игр:
Серия Devil May Cry (в том числе перезапуск)
Серия Resident Evil
Серия Castlevania
Серия Dragon Age
Серия Mass Effect
Серия Guilty Gear
The Witcher III
Metal Gear Rising Revengeance
Metal Gear Solid V The Phantom Pain
Killer Is Dead
Fahrenheit
Alice Madness Returns
Deadly Premonition
Divinity Original Sin
To The Moon
Life Is Strange
Darksiders II
Песни, которые я могу слушать вечно (Почему бы и нет. Может кто-нибудь найдёт для себя что-то новенькое):
Coldrain – Die Tomorrow
Aimee B (Devil May Cry OST) – Future In My Hands
Metallica – I Disappear
Alien Ant Farm – Smooth Criminal
Oomph! – Zwei Schritte Vor
Brian Head Welch – L.O.V.E
Disturbed – Down With The Sickness
Staind – Now
P.O.D. – Will You
Sevendust – Trust
Apocalyptica feat. Corey Taylor – I'm not Jesus
Breaking Benjamin – Without You
Cold – When Angels Fly Away
Midge Ure & Ultravox – The Man Who Sold The World
Dream. Dream. Dream.
You hurt me.
Dream. Dream.
And only the figures glimpses of in front of me.
Dream.
It's darkness lives in of my heart,
And this dream is my nightmare.
After all it destroys itself.
Bangkok is a lousy place. But it contains number of triggers - certain imprints of streets, smells, places where I used to live - that make me remember how happy I was here. Just being among all that makes me elated again. Like a factor that triggers that same emotions I used to experience here before.
Funny thing - no matter how uncomfortable a place is, if I was happy there, it can trigger happiness again and again. Meaning - anything can be that trigger. Any shithole can actually be that ‘enlightened factor’. So Bangkok again.. Doing nothing is a great occupation. Trying to make the most of it while I can. Today I am good at it. All worries about me being obliged to do smth are gone now.
Live This Life!
Lets do it perfect together, LETS LIVE THIS LIFE!
*****
Prime Circle – Live This Life
It is probable that I see the pattern again - one day in elated mood, one in low. It is my usual pattern for the periods when I try to select positive emotions and eliminate negative ones. Sequence of rollbacks. Today is the elated one.
Tried to cure myself while half-asleep in the morning. It became a habit lately - thinking about something that triggers anticipation and imagining that the body will be very fit and healthy. Because it wants to live, anticipates that moment as well.
Sunny morning is great. Like I can feel and smell all tiny pleasures of being alive. I can understand what I want - that's a step forward.
I wanna ruin our friendship
We should be lovers instead
I've already told you about this
'cause you're all the world to me
It's the world we know inside
Building castles with our minds
Breathing life again
We are more than this
Turning fear into our fight
Not letting go keeps us alive
We breathe life again
We are more than this
HeavensDust - More than this
He said, I was just enamoured to him like always the colleagues do after the long project. And the feelings and thoughts will go away. They don't. I'm happy to see him each time. Happy to be next to him and look him in the eyes and listen to his words, trying not to look at his lips. Happy to hug him for a good bye. He has a girlfriend, in relationship over 10 years, together like twins, and a dog. I know I won't do anything. I'm not bitter over that story might not happen with us, but silently hoping he would think of me and want to see me and - such a warm feeling - kiss me. Dreams. dreams. But still happy dreaming about what might happen to us if. Every time in my life I took a first step
What !F users say
Only today learnt about !F and created an account. Have to admit, this site is interesting and special, indeed. The idea is quite the thing! I'll be keeping my diary in spite of anything. I like this anonymity so much!
Fikus
I really enjoy reading other participants, it's so much more sincere here than in any social network.
Дынька
Such a funny idea, to keep an online diary, which can be read by anybody - and nobody at the same time.
Daryel'
I like a lot that there are no comments on !F. Here I have an impression that I am writing just for myself. I have less concern that my message will be evaluated.
!ХуеРы
I like Fragmenter very much. Now I have extra motivation to change. It's a big difference – just write to myself in a paper notebook, or write in order to share my thoughts.
Fragmenter is cool – I start to think once and again why I'm so depressed and how I came to be like that.
Туле 🌱
Fragmenter is the best thing that happened to me this year!
Aart 🐦