Rather calm morning. The ride with the colleague to work was full of accusations about the human nature and nations especially. Really, how can you be certain that the things are the way you see them? You should check everything you think is true. Never mind, I won't ride with him to the work again. I would better take the train and read and enjoy the last free minutes before the work starts.

Sitting and reading and doing nothing special instead of cleaning up the house while listening to waltz music.

Listening to Tchaikovsky. One of the best endings for the first working day after the vacation. The day was not that bad actually. Revised my goals for 2016, will continue on the steps to fulfill them. Read HPMOR - terrific. Can't stop. I hope the books never ends. Looked through the book lists for further reading, prepared next ones on the plan. In 10 minutes going home. Still a lot to do - dishes, plants, all other stuff that has to be cleaned up at home. Nothing done over the weekend.

Hello world!

Isn't it fool to name Rhotacism the inability to pronounce the letter "r"?

I'm still in love with you. I can't remove you from my mind. I have a hope to be loved by you, Sunny Boy. Have no chance. Shamed to say, tired to hide. Realize my love isn't eternal, but now it feels so serious and painful. I'm defenceless for you. Don't know do I really want to stop it. Can't beg your love. Can't escape. Have to survive all the trash for my own. Bye.

When you feel like there’s no way out
Love is the only way.

Love is painful, all the love is painful.
Repeating like a fool. That’s what I always do.
But pain is beautiful. It’s same as you.

G-Dragon – Without You (결국)

you know, daiya no ace fucking hurts me.

i love every second of it.
nothing ever (among other anime \ even tv-shows) made me this happy, i guess

thank you, dna.

and to my readhead too
thank you for sharing this with me.
even though you jealous sometimes, i'm sorry for that.
i'm happy because /you/ brought me to this.
thank you.

#np kim sunggyu – daydream (feat. borderline: tablo & jw)

his voice's breathtaking.
and when i listen to it,
i feel like i'm alive.

thanks to this world
for this very voice.
because i feel like it might be one of the reasons for me to keep fighting.

The Pixies - Where Is My Mind

May the bridges you burn light up your way.

With Christmas lights, champagne and Sherlock in my heart I am dashing into my life, my Limbo, my fight for the future, away from the things I love, into the deaf and blind void, silent and ignorant.

i /hate/ this empty feeling.
it's like you want everyone to leave you alone
but at the same time you want someone by your side. and then... you just don't care. you feel nothing. you just do things.
just exist until something inside you breaks again and it hurts.

i wonder if it ever gets any better?
better than loneliness and pain and that freaking feeling that you're about to fall apart.

and when, for a moment, i believe it's gonna be alright.
just to fall back into that emptiness later.

i do hate that.
so fucking much.

мне бы хотелось,
однажды
задохнуться в этой гребаной пустоте.

Tevirp, Asik <З

hello/hi/good morning.

ive realized i cannot feel comfortable in my body and the number i see is too large. it is not a problem for the people around me or the space i live in, but somehow i feel this stupid and unexplainable feeling of disorder - like "me" and my physical self are shifted from each other as you see the shadow and the object of the same size but in different places.

"i" feel what is called frustrated

• I love you the first time
I love you the last time
Yo soy la princesa, comprende these white lines
Cause I'm your jazz singer
And you're my cult leader
I love you forever
I really love you forever

• This is ultraviolence
Ultraviolence
Ultraviolence
Ultraviolence
I can hear sirens, sirens
He hit me and it felt like a kiss
I can hear violins, violins
Give me all of that ultraviolence.

Heil Satan

Hello everyone. I started a new life, or namely I found the meaning in the one I already have. Great mood, exchanged opinions with a friend and found a lot in common.

Woke up about 8 am, 7 or 6 DAO, not sure. Eaten a perfect breakfast, than poked around tinder and badoo looking for some girls, than jerked off my cock a bit, after that was trying to erradicate contempt, but the effort is still very weak, I know that it has to do with low DAO count a lot. Also tried Cyclic Perception with offence NE, got about 3-4 very weak attempts. Still my condition is noticably better then on the first 2-3 days of orgasm. Want to hang out with some nice girl today, if I dont succeed I will just go for a hussy, and try to find someone sensual (crossing my fingers). Watched intresting SciFiShow Space video about Hypervelocity Rouge Stars on example of US 708.

I started to learn programming in February this year, it was Python. After that , about at the beginning of summer I started to learn programming for IOS, and now , after about 5 months , I have 3 apps in Apple AppStore (using one of which I'm posting this fragment), all developed by me. I think it's really not bad, and it's mean something. It's strange, but I started to forget this... last two months I intensively taught Swift programming language, and now I think I have good understanding of it.

This is not bad start of my programming career.

I enjoy learning French now, I am lucky coz I have a French guy who teaches me (and I teach him Russian). I'm choosing some good song of Mylene Farmer to practice, feeling excited and happy))

Gh

смотрю на монитор щенячьими глазами. напиши мне, пожалуйста. напиши мне. я как будто умираю каждую минуту, клеточка за клеточкой.
Breathe deep, breathe clear. know that I'm here, know that I'm here. waiting. stay strong, stay go. you don't have to fear, you don't have to fear. waiting. I, see you soon, I'll see you soon. How could a heart like yours, ever love a heart like mine, how could I live before
How could I have been so blind - you opened up my eyes.

i still receive replies to my ad, they inspire me a lot actually
fall in love with H colleague, he is so cute!!

8 days after orgasm. 11:20 PM - 5:40 AM