rayong

let sex be this diary's topic since the first day of spring!

payed some credits. Counted money

lingualeo

вернулась на лингвалео. прошла пробный тоеик. хочу в ближ вр пройти настоящий. я молодец.

watch parodies
fall in love with young russian millionaire - admire him

mood:very sleepy

8. do i want to do NOTHING ?
9. do i want to continiue current activity or stop it?

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i m very hunnnnngry now, man. i go to eat!!! and then - @gone with the wind@

if I dont know what do i want exactly right now,
i can ask myself standart questions wich require yes/no answers

1. do i want to eat?
2 to drink?
3. to walk?
4. to speak?
5. to listen?
6. to dance?
7. to shower?
and so on

в

now it's time to fix my financial and self-esteem things. Then i will start to improve my communication skills.
i want to live alone, but also i want to become more open, to overcome my autism

i'm afraid of poverty. I want to promise myself that i wouldn't be a beggar because i love myself and i can stand for my comfort

i feel shame if i remind my teen fall-in-loves to myself. i want to stop it. i want to overcome this habit somehow. now i dont let myself to fall in love, its not good

made waste basket from coca-cola bottle
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started my fiction book
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planned trip for tomorrow - insurance and interviews
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watched bruce almighty
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made and ate sandwiches
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made separate bed for my friend
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want to make mindmap about meetups (my life will be full of meetups! yeah, I proclaim it!)

one episode from the past came to my mind. girl criticised my hat and i started to feel uncomfortable. Now I think that best reaction could be if I didn't pay attention to her opinion. If I had my own opinion and attitude instead of trying to please her. It was my important mistake: try to please another person instead of making myself comfortable inside by following my feelings and wishes. Now I can re-imagine that situation according to my choice
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my pal was in T but I dont want to meet him because of shyness. I think I feel comfortable only if a man shows his interest, but if I see that he is indifferent - it's a tragedy. I cant imagine communication without warm acceptance or admiration

привет, фрагментер! хочу начать вести блог на рус и англ.
регулярно писать туда, постить фото и видео.
пися эту запись, корежусь от жпрвпч.
клево замечать в себе такие вещи, не бояться этого