After coming back home I realized that I feel comfortable while laying, thinking, reading, chatting and I am not so sleepy. It means that after 2 orgasms I had almost no power and desire to work cause it's pretty boring, but when a sexy strip dancer came to talk to me I was quite vigorous and now also laying on the bed I feel OK.
Also the desire of personality development came back. I want to fix fragments, fight against negative emotions, study languages, read etc.
a laziest weekend. slept till 10, cooked a tastiest meal, did some sports and changed a power outlet in the kitchen. now it's a double and i can use an extra light bulb at the same time with other electrical appliances, which is really timely considered the dark half of the year is coming. speaking to a friend of mine, noted reasons why i like driving fast and using bookish words. complexes. all above activities were a perfect excuse to do nearly nothing about the course paper (due 3 weeks ago). no obvious excuse not to tell my ex-boyfriend we are not in a relationship any more. i don't want to harm him, he's having tough time. or it's laziness? or fear of being bad to someone?
Tired, wanna sleep but keep sitting and trying to finish few business matters. Normally I am also tired after long sex but that fatigue is different, it's more pleasant and vivid like after a long pleasant physical activity and in addition fresh and bright sexual recollections. After a 6-hour fucking plus cumming the energy is low, especially at late night, as well as emotions and desires and everything.
Мы особо вспоминаем счастье,
Летом бы было четырнадцать лет.
В жизни всё разделяется властью,
И нам так плохо от чужих побед.
И всё же чаще мы плачем в себя,
С обидой вспоминая те годы.
Нет, нет, нет, прошлое вернуть нельзя.
Буду скучать по небу свободы.
Ещё увидимся, обещаю.
Может не скоро, но время пройдёт,
И мы снова пройдёмся по раю,
По Раю свободы и без забот.
Я всегда думал, что будем вместе,
Всё те четырнадцать лет на пролёт.
Думал, всё обойдётся без «Если…»
Видимо то, был наш прощальный полёт.
I'm trying to avoid negative emotions by focusing on running the business and learning Cantonese. After cumming it's more difficult but I don't want to stick to negative, it's too unpleasant. Abundant memories of non-boring and often exciting fucking with 4 girls are also supporting my mind in pleasant direction:) To be sober and focused after cumming is of great help.
Это был самый офигенский заплыв. Изза отлива можно было уплыть далеко от берега, рассмотреть все кораллы, кот раньше были слишком глубоко. Я видела каракатицу! Фиолетовая пупса см 15, с неоновыми салатовыми точками и ярко голубой обводкой вокруг глаз. Минут 20 за ней плавала. Или она за мной.
Зависала над голубой бездной, пялилась в нее, успокаивалась, и оттуда вдруг проступили 6 каракатиц. 6! Не ожидала такое на снорклинге увидеть. Плавала больше часа, вылезла только потому что замерзла.
Тискала незаметно хуй в общественном месте, возбудилась. Потрахала потом мужа, накрыв сверху подушкой.
Вот, сижу. Думаю, что поделать. Вчера веселый вечер был) Была в ресторане. Танцевала, ела, веселилась. О да) Не писала несколько дней, потому что просто забыла. О, да простит меня великий Fragmenter! Ладно я пошла почитаю книгу штоль. Добра и печенек вам:*
Заснула в 23.50 и проснулась в 8.40. Ща будем с С делать уборку, чтобы было приятно ходить босиком и валяться на полу. Голова тяжёлая.
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