VicFred

I always know long distance relationships are complicated and to save them you should never give up. But I am tired. I can't stand it any more. It's something like a one-way track.
The reason is that he don't want to call me at all. He says that he don't like to call someone and I should accept him in the way what he is. I accept this and i really reraly call him.
We have seen each other only for the first time. And in reality he isn't the same as in the Internet.
And we live in different countries. And nobody of us want to move in because we are too stubborn and don't want to leave our families.

I really hate the moments when there is nothing to do. I thought that the last course of college life would be challenging but in reality it's not so. I am wasting my time.
My cousin gave birth to a forth child yesterday.
And my friend had birthday yesterday. We ate delicious cake and drank two bottles of wine. I overdrank a bit although I didn't drink much.

So, it's not the first diary which I use to express my thoughts and emotions. But it really helps to open the inner world and to share information with someone whom you don't know.
I believe that the world divides into white and black stripes. Unfortunately, white stripes lasted to long.. welcome back, black ones.
I hate when I am crying at public places especially in front of my groupmattes. I don't want to share with them my weaknesses. But I can't do anything. And I don't know why it is so important to me.
My cat died and I miss him. It is something like a part of my hurt broken. Although it's not the first time when someone who is important to me died. Unfortunately