just a number

three days without smoking!
can't say it was super easy
but i'm glad i did it
i have a lot of support from my cinnamon bun :3
it really helps when i can say all of my thoughts and concers out loud
without any fear of being judged
with understanding

and it's only the beginning!

yesterday was tough
i almost had a breakdown!
fortunately some wonderful people helped me with it
but for how long?

now i am awake
sometimes thinking about lots of the things i have to do makes me feel... vulnerable
sometimes i wish i could sleep for 16h/day
BUT WHAT'S IMPORTANT i don't feel this way now
wanna start reading 'power of now' and some papers for my thesis 💪

long time no see, haha
decided to create a new profile
however my thoughts are still the same :)
decided to write in english
decided to deal with my smoking addiction

i think
sometimes i believe that i'm a really weak person
sometimes i can't believe in my future success
sometimes i can't believe in myself
can i believe myself?

so i am trying to quit smoking
i had a pack from yesterday that i didn't throw away
and i have smoked in the morning
just because i had cigs
but then i threw it away anyway
another countless attempt huh

i don't know how i feel right now
i've felt pretty good for the whole day
will i be able to stop myself from smoking in the evening?

mystery