https://youtu.be/iRn-4on8jwo

мир, дружба, жвачка = sex

https://youtu.be/AsiSdfCrMHs
https://youtu.be/gVSP5t7BToA
https://youtu.be/pICAha0nsb0

Мумми отжигает на старости:
https://youtu.be/5SxCjGfd-P0
https://youtu.be/qYkJ7fgz274
https://youtu.be/6QVTIg5cfKg

Михалок, тож красава
https://youtu.be/Nx2PoxZ3fPA
https://youtu.be/Fq8DBUjJt2o

«If the tanks succeed, then victory follows.»
«New weapons require new tactics. Never put new wine into old bottles.»
«The engine of the Panzer is a weapon just as the main-gun.»
— Heinz Guderian

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6rS0nGHDug

Мusic
Legends on Strings - Orpheus Odyssey
Ulvesang (Full Album) - Ulvesang
The Mamas & The Papas - California Dreaming (OST Chungking Express)
XIII - Город 13
Три дня дождя - Демоны
Akira Yamaoka - Dance with night wind
ÑΣVΣR GΣT U$ΣD TØ PΣØPLΣ - ЦΣЛУЙ МΣНЯ (Life Letters) [Daycore/Anti-Nightcore]
Capital Bra - Cherry Lady
Сны Матильды - Роза мира
Goran Bregović - In The Death Car
Le Couleur - Femme
Marcel Mouloudji - Mon quartier
Hachi-nan tte, Sore wa Nai deshou! - Jikuu no Mayoi Hito
Poets
Михаил Кузмин
Николай Заболоцкий
Сергей Кулле

I want to smoke

100%
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8H4TLLvGNo

existence... some one doesn't want it... who?

i hate myself

I'm scared to know who you might be

no one knows what will be and it feels like the same feelings will be the same

love makes you do crazy things. things that only fools do. like dream. but dreams. they are not real.

Не доделал бота, отвлекся часа на 4 на (VR) порно.

I hate myself.

in this life there is no greater pain than losing time with the people that you love the most

You should change
You can
And you will

Here we go again
Im back I think almost a year passed

I’m quite good
But something just doesnt feel right
I have this feeling
And I got to tell someone
But
Again
There is nobody to talk to
I mean
I got friends
Good people
But still
Don’t want to tell them
They won’t understand
Me? I don’t wanna disappoint and bother and stuff

So yeah
Pretty no one cares actually

Need to do smth
Will write down my thoughts firstly to avoid madness

And yeah 5th day of my disease, hope it’s not covid19

once again. life completely shatters my world.

life doesn't care about me, why should i care about life.

i hate myself.

i don't care anymore

You know, life is made up of moments. Everyone wants to focus on what's right and what to do in the moment. Live in the moment. What are moments? What's the difference between one moment and another moment. What's the difference between a single moment and many moments that make up a larger moment. Fuck moments. Fuck life. I'm tired. I want to give up. Everything seems against me. Just a moment. Just a moment. Just a moment. Just a moment. Just your moment. Just your moment. Just your moment. Anything to feel better now. Even if now I feel worse because of before. Anything to feel better now even if I feel worse later. Please save me. No more moments. No more anything. I want to end.

The happiness lasted for a single night. I hate everything.

I have such an ever consuming sinking feeling right now. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't.

i am a shit. i am shit. i am shit. i can't help anyone. i can't help myself. i am weak. i am stupid. i can't do anything right. why am i like this. my face is hot. my eyes are watering. i miss everyone. i am apathetic. why. why. why. what am i doing. i can't deal with this. be kind to yourself. life. life. life. why. why. why. what did i do. what is happening i don't understand. i want things to make sense. i want to be normal again. i'm scared. i want to believe everything will be okay. i'm so sorry. i can't do anything. i am shit. i''m sorry to my family, friends and girlfriend. i hate myself. i thought i was better than this. but i am nothing.